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Saturday, September 6, 2014

20+10 things about me. (Okay..boring)

1. Easily pissed off, easily cool down.
2. Sensitive.
3. Enjoy eating
4. Enjoy complaining even does not really mean it
5. Have a serious sweet tooth.
6. Love everything and anything about camera.
7. Get easily upset when it comes to faulty gadget.
8. Secretly feeling proud when people come to refer about gadget and techies
9. Whole body not functioning when it comes to sports and adventurous activities
10. Clumsy since first day of born
11. Highly organized but seasonal
12. Slow in making decision. Must consider all sorts of consequences
13. Secretive but give hints and allusions that people would not understand
14. High tolerance and do not like conflict. Easily feeling guilty.
15. Bad at lying. Face is  transparent.
16. Bad at starting conversation unless with the closed ones.
17. Simple at most times.
18. Did not realize of  having many polka dots stuffs until someone point it out and make fun of it
19. Like to listen to favourite songs while travelling far
20. Every significant people and events in life are given theme songs.
21. Romantic but do not know how to show it through actions
22. Like Sony gadget that much after father's doctrine.
23. Like to see people doing sports - the least to do when u can't play sports :')
24. Easily pour feelings in written words form.
25. Does not really say what is inside, because when I go straightforward, people are hurt.
26  Easily influenced to imitate the slang of one's when talking to her/him.
27. Won't pick up calls when tired and buzy. But will call back once all ready.
28. Awkward with old people and new people.
29.Likes to give advice even the one that I did not do. LOL.
30. Academic and grade conscious even I don't look that academic.
31. Sincerely adoring those who create and design like graphic designer, engineer, architect, photographer.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Of being Realistic, not Idealishit.

Orang in love selalu came up dengan benda2 bullshit.
They are some bunch of MAD MAD PEOPLE.
Dorang x make sense n irrational.
Contohnya:
Lautan berapi sanggup ku renangi.
Itu super-hyperbole terlampau.

As in my case,
Ada orang cakap,

"If somebody truly loves you, they are willing to do EVERYTHING for you as long as you are happy."

Statement ne pada aku 50-50.
Betul n Bullshit.

Betul sebab ko akan berusaha sedaya upaya to maintain n keep up the relationship till the extend ko trust n share almost everyting, spend on dia, beli hadiah, bawak p jalan2, topup, calls, dari sorg yg kaku ko tiba2 if pandai melawak such n such. Serba sedikit ko akan berubah as you are trying to fit in dengan dia. Kira banyak la labur n berkorban ne. Fuh.

Bullshit sebab kadang2 bila you go against nature (Kadang2 ada situation ko xleh nak control - contoh mcm ko x dpt permit nak g date, or hari ko nak outing tu ada ribut petir la pulak), or trying too hard.
benda2 ne jadi macam satu bentuk pembaziran lak, in monetary terms, masa, n such. Nanti ko letih.

Ko bayangkan. Ko keje from 9-5.
Ko balik2 kena drive lagi. Rumah ko jauh.
Sampai umah, xde orang nak sambut. Ko kena masak tuk dinner.
Nak beli boleh aje, tapi kadang2 mana la ko nak tahan hadap makanan2 yg dahla x berapa nak sihat, mahal pulak tue.
Lepas tue nak urus umah lagi, urus diri, prepare tuk keje next day.
Sampai kadang2 ko nak ada masa tuk diri sendiri pun payah.

Aku yg student, yg dikatanya ada banyak masa free (lum sampai musim nak bz lagi memang ah)
pun kadang2 letih dengan jadual yg pack cam tin sardin. And kalao ada hari yg free n xde heavy subject, time tue la nak buat something tuk diri sendiri.
Ada masa, untuk aku lah...aku rasa punya la malas n demotivated...sampai nak bercakap pun malas...aku la tue... arrrgh...

Thats why kadang2...bila aku x dapat steady good moment..like nafkah calls or mesej....aku cool.
Pada aku...orang yang cakap

"No matter how buzy you are, you will still allocate a time for your loved ones"

Again, 50-50

Ada hari aku letih nak mati, aku kalao boleh xnak bercakap dengan dia.
Ko pun tau bila ko not in a good mood. Physically, mentally n emotionally tired, ko buat apa pun xjadi.
Kalau boleh aku nak tunggu time yang I CAN GIVE ALL MY BEST to make a damn good rocking moment with them.
Ko dah letih half dead walking zombie, ko lagi nak pegi spend good time dgn dia? Silap2 ko buat dia jadi lauk makan malam. Bila ko letih, yu tend to reflect to others. So, baik pegi tido recharge battery.

But again, ada masa, bila aku rindu, aku buat 60second call je tuk dengar suara dia(or mereka), n everything goes well, n I wish Good Night, as simple as that.

And kadang2, bila dia (or mereka) make an effort to call, even how letih yu are, ko xkan tunjuk n ko pun fake-kan suara ko, so that he knows you are well.
Benda ne aku selalu buat kat ibu, tapi kuasa PSIKIK
seorang ibu, she knows straight away when her daughter feels K.O. Mang xleh sorok la plus aku fail menipu.So my point is.
WE NEED TO BE REALISTIC
INSTEAD OF IDEALISTIC.

Ko boleh bgtau org yg ko syg yang ko boleh TERBANG merentas masa semata2 nak spend good moment together sedangkan masa tue ko ada komitmen dengan esaimen x siap lagi n besok lak tue nak kena hantar.
So awal2 lagi ko dah x realistik.
Tapi ko bagi idea pada si dia yang shuweet2 aje
that everything gonna happen well, like I will be there for you like no matter happen.
Sedangkan, idea tue ko nak REALISASIKAN PUN X BOLEH, kalao ikut logik.

Cuma, selalunya best jadi idealistic ne, semua yang keluar, semuanya manis2. ^___^
Well, depends.





Monday, January 7, 2013

Label for Malaysian Students ku oh.

Aku student.
Aku malas.
Baca pun malas.
Masuk kelas ngantuk. 
Suka port belakang.
Isnin we got this Monday's blues lah konon.
Lecturer bebel kat depan, kitorg bebel jugak sekali kat belakang.
Xpun diam layan ngantuk.

Lepas tue lecturer tanya...
Paham ke?
Kami hangguk kan aje
Maybe betul2 paham, paham2, buat2 paham or langsung xpaham
So many degrees of understanding.

N then lecturer open up discussion
minta idea...or TAGIH idea...
Semua diam...
Lecturer komplen...
"What has gotten into you guys?"
Demotivated n pemalas gilaaaaaa. Sumpah.

It happens.
Sometimes. Some people, It definitely is occurring.

Kadang tue bukan kami x tau.
Sometimes ada blues, mood, 
Entah ke kami prob...Homesick ke...who knows?

BTW
MALAYSIAN STUDENTS ARE ALWAYS PICTURED IN THESE KIND OF WAYS:
1. Passive
2. MELAYU = MALAS
3. Lazy to / Do not bother / Do not have awareness to read
4. " to ask
5. " to voice out ideas
6. " to voice out DISSATISFACTION. They would rather talk among themselves. KUTUK2 session. Fuh, lagi sedap jumpa orang yang sekepala, mcm2 dia tembak. In the end, masalah x selesai jugak, maka dia kutuk2 lah lagi. Kutuk je lebih, counter attack xde. How coward kan.
7. PEMALU. Blergh. Kadang2 malu x kena tempat
8. Ikut orang. Pengaruh kawan2 ne kuat. Lao kawan dia diam, dia pun diam. Lao kawan dia join n nak bagi idea, dia pun sibuk2lah nak tolong habiskan ayat tue.
9. Kurang tahu ISU. Suka bukak FACEbook dari portal2 berfaedah.

The Art in Me.

Left or right? or Up or bottom? Lol
Yang bawah, yg nampak retard tue aku lukis n modify.
Yang epal perfekto tue, model aku, Aku print bnw.
Basically, aku x lukis sangat pun, aku TIRU je. Tapi x menjadi the exact 100% la.
Quite importantly, aku xdela smpai TEKAP. Tue lagi hina. EH? lol,


Super disaster. Big time challenge.
This sem ada subjek seni since we guys big probably r doing art for our minor.
Aku yang tangan keras cam kayu terpaksa meleburkan tangan tuk kelembutan ayu demi membolehkan lukisan aku dihadam dan diterima ramai n yang penting lecturer, the big boss.

Oh ya...
Aku agak underestimate my ability.
History said aku penah sekali (or maybe twice) dpt A lam, subjek PSV
So, aku x konfiden aku leh master this course.

Tapi3...
After all it is not that bad...
Banyak benda leh kao belajar.

Aku x berapa malu nak tayang hasil aku yg x seberapa
Cuz I know I have tried my best
Tapi3..
aku malu nak tayang the behind the scene penghasilan sesuatu karya itu
Malu org tengok the hardship, I shed blood n tears kah3
Nampak seksa n susah payah sgt nak siapkan sumtin.
So, yg tue xleh tunjuk, Nti kantoi la betapa x cool nya aku. har3.

Lagi satu aku belajar about there's nothing PERFECT.
Y'know..bila ko lukis masa zaman muda mudi2 dulu...
lukis nak perfek je...epal tue simetri...sama je...xde cacat celanya...
Cam lam gambar KARTUN
Maybe dorg wat camtu sebab nak bagi gambaran yang mudah to kids, this is how an apple looks like

Tapi bila aku perati n lukis balik betul2
N lukis as orang dewasa, which is lebih REALISTIK ah kononnya
I realized ada banyak imperfection
Contoh bentuk dia x simetri,
Besar kanan, kecik kiri, berulat, ada kena gigit, x rata, yada yada yada
And you will value those imperfections more.
KOT.
hehe. (:

The Revival.

Old blog. Old layout. Old same person writing.
But,
Less hassle, less shit (I'm not sure)

After done with 'spring cleaning'.
Mual aku tengok post2 lama.
Ada comel, ada gedik, ada mengada, semuanya menyumbang kepada kemuntahan,
Still, two posts was succesfully saved.
Posts tue ada value, sayang pulak nak buang.
Yang childish talks tue all successfully flushed down the bin with just a click.

Ada rasa2 nak menulis kat blog org malas a.k.a Tumblr.
Tapi, blog ne layout dia semua, aku design sendiri kot, (eleh copy paste html je pun)
Before ada lagu pic so n so yg konon2nya benda2 comel.
Now, aku delete all those stuff, serabut I must say.
Blog ne ada value somehow to me.
From 2009 until now. Tukar url, gaining followers. sampai chatbox pun aku revived.
All in all, ada rasa sayang.
So, I will be writing back in here.
Whenever I feel like doing so.
And, about not writing in a childish manner, I can't guarantee.
Alah orang tua pun ada masa time feel cam budak2 jugak.
It's just right. Feels right. Perfect.

The Bebel Darling.

My photo
A dreamer. Talk shits. Care back double to those who cares. Like EVERYTHING sweet, but not ready for diabetes.
 

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